Why couldn't it be a pleasure? Luke wondered vaguely, knowing it was merely politeness and that his own response was out of proportion. The injury, the familiarity with things now fondly remembered, and this odd feeling of at homeness with the other man were on his side, simply a heightened reaction to trauma. And he--
"Ben?" He faltered in his step, staring up at the man and searching the unlined face with his breath caught in his lungs. The resemblance was uncanny, now that he was allowing himself to see it and not just dismissing the coincidence of location. The voice, the eyes, the very presence of him. Impossible or not, this could be no one but Obi-Wan Kenobi. Anything else was even more unthinkable.
But what did it mean? A clone? A dream? A trick from some dark power, to lure him into a trap?
Whatever it was, he could not explain it, and so perhaps taking a leaf from Ben's old playbook he shook it off and forced a tight smile.
"I knew someone of that name," he offered by way of explanation. "He ... meant a lot to me."
"Ben?" He faltered in his step, staring up at the man and searching the unlined face with his breath caught in his lungs. The resemblance was uncanny, now that he was allowing himself to see it and not just dismissing the coincidence of location. The voice, the eyes, the very presence of him. Impossible or not, this could be no one but Obi-Wan Kenobi. Anything else was even more unthinkable.
But what did it mean? A clone? A dream? A trick from some dark power, to lure him into a trap?
Whatever it was, he could not explain it, and so perhaps taking a leaf from Ben's old playbook he shook it off and forced a tight smile.
"I knew someone of that name," he offered by way of explanation. "He ... meant a lot to me."
Obi-Wan’s barely gotten Jacen seated when the younger man allows himself to fall into a healing trance, trusting that he’s safe for the time being. He opens himself up to the Force, letting it fill him, revitalize him; the pain he can still take, but he’s well aware his body’s reaching its limits.
He begins to go still. He feels the cool cloth on his head, and later on the glass of water in his hand. He surfaces from his trance, just enough to do as he’s instructed, sipping the water gratefully.
Then he leans back against the chair and back into the Force’s embrace, drawing from it once more, like drinking water. But he lifts his head a little to look at the older man, curiousity in his eyes. He’s not quite sure — he just might be delirious — but for a moment there it‘s like he could feel his rescuer, burning bright and strong in the Force.
He begins to go still. He feels the cool cloth on his head, and later on the glass of water in his hand. He surfaces from his trance, just enough to do as he’s instructed, sipping the water gratefully.
Then he leans back against the chair and back into the Force’s embrace, drawing from it once more, like drinking water. But he lifts his head a little to look at the older man, curiousity in his eyes. He’s not quite sure — he just might be delirious — but for a moment there it‘s like he could feel his rescuer, burning bright and strong in the Force.
She squeezes his hand, grateful. "I'm sure they will be. I just. I don't know if I'm ready for them to be away from me." There's a small, sad smile to the words. "It's funny, I wanted a family so much..." And she still did, but oh the cost has been high.
"I'm glad you're here."
"I'm glad you're here."
His hug my be abbreviated but her's is not, leaning into his shoulder, arms around his back and chest. With her abdomen still round and recovering from childbirth but the weight of it gone (and the roundness much smaller than she had been), she feel so small against him.
"It's different. You didn't feel them move within you, their kicks and turns, their hiccups. With them born, I almost feel empty." Some of that, no doubt, was due to Anakin's lack in her life. "And then I look at them, and it's almost as if I will burst for the love I feel."
As they spoke, Padmé leading them away from Obi-Wan's project, as he spoke his promise, Padmé's tone softened. "I know you will. But if something happens...if it's me or them. It's them. It will always be them."
"It's different. You didn't feel them move within you, their kicks and turns, their hiccups. With them born, I almost feel empty." Some of that, no doubt, was due to Anakin's lack in her life. "And then I look at them, and it's almost as if I will burst for the love I feel."
As they spoke, Padmé leading them away from Obi-Wan's project, as he spoke his promise, Padmé's tone softened. "I know you will. But if something happens...if it's me or them. It's them. It will always be them."
Being sent to various planets scattered throughout the system certainly wasn't anything new. It happened a lot and far too often for Anakin's liking. He wished the war would just end -- with their victory of course. So many lives were already lost and each new mission seemed to take him farther and farther away from her. He tried not to let his thoughts linger too long as he stared out the window of the republic's temporary base.
The land was desolate and cold. Mostly cold. Another thing Anakin did not like.
"I'm never agreeing to come to a planet like this ever again. Why is it always some place frozen? Are they trying to turn me into an icicle? For once, I'd just like to go some place warm for a change."
He spoke to no one in particular and paced in front of the window a little bit. That leads to another thing Anakin disliked: waiting.
The land was desolate and cold. Mostly cold. Another thing Anakin did not like.
"I'm never agreeing to come to a planet like this ever again. Why is it always some place frozen? Are they trying to turn me into an icicle? For once, I'd just like to go some place warm for a change."
He spoke to no one in particular and paced in front of the window a little bit. That leads to another thing Anakin disliked: waiting.
Really, she knows that and doesn't need it said. Except she does, even in his taciturn way, and relieved, she turned back against Obi-Wan, leaning heavily against him, sniffling for a moment. "Thank you." It's less than whispered, more air with the barest hint of word, but relief colored her regardless and some the tension she was feeling slipped away.
"A month ago I thought I was safe. I was planning how to set up the nursery, trying to figure out how to explain my deception to you. My parents, my sister, they would have understood. Maybe not approved, but I've always done things my own way. But I've been lying to you for a long time, and I've felt so guilty. Now, you're the only friend I have left, and I don't know what I'd do without you. Or them." Which is to say, she's felt guilty, but not really sorry for her deception or plotting behind his back over Anakin. She loved him then, and even now she hasn't stopped, even if she was sure he'd shattered her heart beyond repair.
But his joke at least made her laugh, even as she wipes at her face. "You know, I seem to remember my sister swearing newborns slept a lot. Guess no one told them."
"A month ago I thought I was safe. I was planning how to set up the nursery, trying to figure out how to explain my deception to you. My parents, my sister, they would have understood. Maybe not approved, but I've always done things my own way. But I've been lying to you for a long time, and I've felt so guilty. Now, you're the only friend I have left, and I don't know what I'd do without you. Or them." Which is to say, she's felt guilty, but not really sorry for her deception or plotting behind his back over Anakin. She loved him then, and even now she hasn't stopped, even if she was sure he'd shattered her heart beyond repair.
But his joke at least made her laugh, even as she wipes at her face. "You know, I seem to remember my sister swearing newborns slept a lot. Guess no one told them."
"Oh come on, Master, I only complain when it's true."
Anakin doesn't look over, but continues his stare down with the window. So he doesn't notice Obi-Wan step into his path.
"Besides. The only upside is unlike Tatoonie there is no sand and you know how much I ha--"
And there it is. His thoughts were still in pieces, his mind elsewhere on someone else. His gaze snaps on the Master Jedi just he collides right into him.
Anakin doesn't look over, but continues his stare down with the window. So he doesn't notice Obi-Wan step into his path.
"Besides. The only upside is unlike Tatoonie there is no sand and you know how much I ha--"
And there it is. His thoughts were still in pieces, his mind elsewhere on someone else. His gaze snaps on the Master Jedi just he collides right into him.
Jacen doesn’t know how long it’s been when he finally surfaces from his trance, but he’s certain, at least, that he feels much better. He has several cuts and bruises, but that and his other injuries aren’t life-threatening.
He opens his eyes and quietly takes a look around, not daring to move anything else but his eyes, at least for the moment. He’s in some sort of hut, small but certainly occupied; the chair he’s sitting on is padded, comfortable, and there’s a small table beside him, on top of which is a half-full glass of water. Suddenly reminded of his thirst, he makes himself straighten up in his seat so he could reach for the glass, and when he can’t quite get a hold of it, he uses the Force to pull it towards him just a teensy bit.
Who’s using the Force as a tool now? he thinks, and he could almost hear Anakin mocking him for his hypocrisy.
He drinks greedily — nearly choking on the first attempt — and as he does so, he tries to remember how he’d gotten here, what happened before he’d crawled out of the wreckage of the crash. But still nothing comes to mind.
So he’s marooned on some desert planet. Well, he’s been through worse.
He opens his eyes and quietly takes a look around, not daring to move anything else but his eyes, at least for the moment. He’s in some sort of hut, small but certainly occupied; the chair he’s sitting on is padded, comfortable, and there’s a small table beside him, on top of which is a half-full glass of water. Suddenly reminded of his thirst, he makes himself straighten up in his seat so he could reach for the glass, and when he can’t quite get a hold of it, he uses the Force to pull it towards him just a teensy bit.
Who’s using the Force as a tool now? he thinks, and he could almost hear Anakin mocking him for his hypocrisy.
He drinks greedily — nearly choking on the first attempt — and as he does so, he tries to remember how he’d gotten here, what happened before he’d crawled out of the wreckage of the crash. But still nothing comes to mind.
So he’s marooned on some desert planet. Well, he’s been through worse.
He has to force himself to continue walking--hobbling, really, the leg is really in quite a lot of pain--as Ben indicates he knows exactly what's going on. Or, anyway, suspects the same impossible thing Luke does. He pales under the sheen of sweat, biting his lip as he leans a bit on the other man to get his bearings, but soon they're making decent progress, falling into a rhythm.
Maybe that process is sufficient cover for Luke's confusion and shock. How is it possible? And yet, is it any stranger than any other explanation, which relies too heavily on coincidence and long odds? He probably shouldn't have said that, he realizes too late. About knowing someone, about him having meant a lot. It gave away too much.
But he's not sure he's ready to talk about that, or even to acknowledge the truth. It would mean having to do something about it, and that's a level of forethought he doesn't feel equipped for at the moment.
"I think we should focus on the immediate," he says after a pause, almost laughing at how that recalls Yoda's admonition of his need to always chase the future. Well, maybe he has learned something. Or maybe his brain just can't process that this young man could actually be Ben Kenobi.
He never would've guessed red hair, he notices distractedly.
Maybe that process is sufficient cover for Luke's confusion and shock. How is it possible? And yet, is it any stranger than any other explanation, which relies too heavily on coincidence and long odds? He probably shouldn't have said that, he realizes too late. About knowing someone, about him having meant a lot. It gave away too much.
But he's not sure he's ready to talk about that, or even to acknowledge the truth. It would mean having to do something about it, and that's a level of forethought he doesn't feel equipped for at the moment.
"I think we should focus on the immediate," he says after a pause, almost laughing at how that recalls Yoda's admonition of his need to always chase the future. Well, maybe he has learned something. Or maybe his brain just can't process that this young man could actually be Ben Kenobi.
He never would've guessed red hair, he notices distractedly.
Anakin and Obi-Wan ending up into some sort of weird tumble was far from a strange occurrence. He, himself, almost completely fell over. Maybe they both needed to lighten up a bit.
"Master, how many times have I told you to stop standing in my way. Sometimes I think you just want me to run you over."
If anything Obi-Wan distracted him from complaining about the cold. It probably won't last long, but it's a start.
"Master, how many times have I told you to stop standing in my way. Sometimes I think you just want me to run you over."
If anything Obi-Wan distracted him from complaining about the cold. It probably won't last long, but it's a start.
Luke holds his breath a moment, until Ben stops himself, and he's not sure whether he's relieved or disappointed. It'd be nice, after all, to get it out, to have something other than his leg to think about, but he's also not sure yet what his response will be, so it's just as well.
Now the word 'Jedi' is out there, as if there was ever any doubt. But just what else is the other man assuming?
He huffs in irritation and un-Jedi-like impatience at Ben's prescription. He can't afford any lingering weakness, not with his life. And he's eager to hang on to his remaining limbs.
"Meaning you're getting a houseguest, and my ship's repairs are going to take awhile," he grumbles, and then backpedals quickly. "Not that I should assume, I mean... That is, if it's all right--if this is what I think, it's not exactly... safe for me to go anywhere."
In more ways than one.
Now the word 'Jedi' is out there, as if there was ever any doubt. But just what else is the other man assuming?
He huffs in irritation and un-Jedi-like impatience at Ben's prescription. He can't afford any lingering weakness, not with his life. And he's eager to hang on to his remaining limbs.
"Meaning you're getting a houseguest, and my ship's repairs are going to take awhile," he grumbles, and then backpedals quickly. "Not that I should assume, I mean... That is, if it's all right--if this is what I think, it's not exactly... safe for me to go anywhere."
In more ways than one.
The embrace is probably more welcome than words anyway, Obi-Wan's form solid and warm, more present than turbulent emotions or now dead dreams. And so she stays, leaning against his shoulder until he's willing to break the contact.
"Four Jedi for twenty infants and little ones sounds like not enough. Though it is sad that such an assignment was used for punishment, I always liked helping my sister with her children when I was home." Which wasn't nearly as often as she would have liked, now that she had two of her own to care for, and her mother, sister, grandparents, cousins, all so far away.
"I wasn't going to hand my child over to the creche. That's why I didn't tell you I was expecting. I didn't want to put you in the middle. Or hurt you." She makes the confession quietly, but there's no wavering in her voice, her mind long made up. It was a privilege of social rank, even if, considering Palpatine, one that wasn't always a great idea, to be able to refuse a 'request' from the Jedi.
"Four Jedi for twenty infants and little ones sounds like not enough. Though it is sad that such an assignment was used for punishment, I always liked helping my sister with her children when I was home." Which wasn't nearly as often as she would have liked, now that she had two of her own to care for, and her mother, sister, grandparents, cousins, all so far away.
"I wasn't going to hand my child over to the creche. That's why I didn't tell you I was expecting. I didn't want to put you in the middle. Or hurt you." She makes the confession quietly, but there's no wavering in her voice, her mind long made up. It was a privilege of social rank, even if, considering Palpatine, one that wasn't always a great idea, to be able to refuse a 'request' from the Jedi.
Jacen sets the glass down carefully, not quite trusting himself to have enough strength yet, and turns to look at Obi-Wan, nodding gratefully. “Thank you.” And, almost as an afterthought, he adds, with a small smile, “Sir.”
He watches as the older man moves around the hut; he doesn’t have to reach out with the Force to feel how calm and unfazed Obi-Wan is, all things considered. “And I’m sorry for the trouble. I’ll be on my way as soon as I’m able.”
Right, he tells himself, wincing inwardly. As if it’s that easy. With the Yuuzhan Vong war in full force, it’s not going to be easy finding transport. He doesn’t even know where he has to go — because, accepting his death to be inevitable, he didn’t even bother to ask Ganner for his family’s whereabouts when they’d met.
He watches as the older man moves around the hut; he doesn’t have to reach out with the Force to feel how calm and unfazed Obi-Wan is, all things considered. “And I’m sorry for the trouble. I’ll be on my way as soon as I’m able.”
Right, he tells himself, wincing inwardly. As if it’s that easy. With the Yuuzhan Vong war in full force, it’s not going to be easy finding transport. He doesn’t even know where he has to go — because, accepting his death to be inevitable, he didn’t even bother to ask Ganner for his family’s whereabouts when they’d met.
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